| | tred mill... have you ever been on one? you walk forward but stand
still and if you stop you move backwards. funny b/c sometimes i feel
like my life is like that... i am running forward, i can feel my body
puttin forth energy, all my muscles getting a work out and sweat lots
of sweat, with the whole breathing thing getting heavier and heavier
(yes i feel out of shape, not capable and tired) and put off energy,
but not feel like anything else around me is changing, or actually
getting to where i want to go. yet if i stop, it doesnt stop... it
keeps going and i go backwards. there is this urge to keep running,
b/c no one once to move backwards. what embarassment to not keep up or
keep going. we were just too weak or not in shape enough, the machine
beat us...
and in a state of fatigue and almost panic we think to ourselves how do i get off (out) of this thing?... i am going to die!
OFF
there
are some good things about the tred mill, i think... i mean it keeps us
from being lazy, if we actually do it. and it helps us in our
endurance, which i think is very important in all of life
circumstances, no matter the country, but that off button is also very
important b/c the tred mill cant own you. and if it does... oh la la,
not good.
i dont know where you are at or whats going on in you life... but i
know for me, i need to run at God's pace... he is the only one that can
atually get us to the place we are trying to get and in him is the "off
button". and this is something i have to keep reminding myself. i
want soo much to be a lil bit father along and so i feel like in trying
to get there i run faster but that doesnt always work, then the pace
really does pick up but the distance doesnt nec change and i find my
heart beat racing and longing to keep up but cant. God though, he is a
really good athelite. he hasnt gotten tired like me or of me. and he
knows where this off button is and when i really need to push it. he
is a great coach, i just have to get my head out of my running mode for
a moment or 2 and actually listen not to my own heart beating but to
his. :)
how about you?
the building is coming a
long... sat we put down some of the floor...wow its really exciting. i
cant wait to actually get to live in that place! there is still a lot
to be done. and at times i wonder if it will ever be finished... but i
hold on to the hope and i know that some where deep in my heart it will
be. i cant wait to see what God is going to do, and in my time of
working and waiting i rest b/c i know that he is preparing me.
so that is was last week more or less.... running along God... asking him for endurance and working in the building for the week to come... who knows what adventures lie ahead! YEAH!
hope you have a great day! |
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